RAW WOOL

I hate when he's passive aggressive...I want to just go to bed sometimes too...but I'm responsible for cleaning up, putting the kids to bed, and keeping them asleep through the night.  But he gets to sit outside w/his blackberry...or go to bed cuz he's tired...I still have to finish up.

Why am I lonely when I have all this activity around me?  Why when I am married to a man I love?  Does he know how I feel?  Do I tell him, show him?  Perhaps I just want to be pursued by him again...and not just be convenient.

Oh, goody.  Grumpy is home.  Early.

So, we were talking about addiction...or at least I was... 

I guess I can forgive the lesbian porn addiction, since I have my own addiction to yarn.  Yarn porn will be posted as time allows...

My husband thinks I have too much yarn...and I can't buy anymore until I use up what I have!  HA!  I only have 4 totes full, plus an XXXL ziplock bag, and another zipped up bag....he's the one who told me to knit with the good yarn...

I'm knitting as fast I can...

In the Christian community, this would be called a testimony...I guess.  Okay, let's catch y'all up to the story so far:

I was married, just after turning 21, to a nice guy.  Well, I thought he was a nice guy.  He had a bit of a porn addiction, but I guess he was still a nice guy.  Happy, happy, joy, joy, for about 7 years...then he has a heart attack and dies...and I'm a widow at 28.  After a good period of mourning, I found myself in the company of a sucession of women...then in a long term relationship with one woman who had lots of baggage.  She introduced me to my current husband (hopefully the last) and I was subsequently shunned by the lesbian community that I had been embraced by previously.   I miss my old friends and my old life.  I've become active in his church, but they don't know who I was.  I tread very carefully.  

Did I mention I knit?  

Oh yeah, turns out hubbie #2 is a porn addict too...lesbian porn...I should have known...